This life I’ve been given is one that, not even in a million years, I’d have ever anticipated. It’s not one that I’d ever have chosen if given an option… obviously. The “before” feels like a completely different person.. in a completely different lifetime. The “now” is made up of small moments laced with grief, incurable (and at times debilitating) anxiety, dissociation, and depression. How do you cope when every single aspect of your life has been rocked by prolonged trauma? It’s not a one and done type of thing. It’s constant. It’s harsh, unforgiving, in your face, and at times subtle. Despite trying, happiness feels foreign. You’re no longer the “you” you once knew and you feel like a stranger, even to yourself. There’s no “when this is over”. There’s only hope that future days won’t be as terribly hard. Mom’n don’t stop just because you don’t want to get out of bed. Here’s to hoping that you one day you’re able to feel human again, and that you’re able to do more than just survive. Here’s to hoping to one day learn to actually live again 🤍#prayersupforanistonmarie#hepatoblastoma #littlewonderwoman #advocatelikeamother #micropreemie #iugr #iugrbaby #25weeker #ROP #nystagmus #bronchopulmonarydysplasia #chroniclungdisease #congenitallymphaticmalformation #vascularanomoly #tracheomalacia #gjtube #tubie #tpn #centralline #medicallycomplex #trac
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